This is a simple conversation between my heart and my brain…
Heart : I miss him a lot.. I cant let him out of my mind. Whenever I watched a romantic movie, I will certainly think about me. Why did he leave me? I can be a very very good wife and mother. I’m willing to learn how to cook or even clean the house and so on just to be by your side and why you’re doing this to me? Please come back… :’(
Brain: Come on, Peggy! You got to be kidding to me. There are tons of boys out there waiting for you why dont you give it a try?
Heart: He is always on my mind and I can get him out of it. I wanted to be cool and walked away but I just couldn’t… I don’t want other guys. He is the only guy that I want. I never meet this kind of guy before. I know he has a bright future and he will be a very responsible guy and he will take care and protect me from danger.
Brain : You thought you’re living in a fairy tale and you’re the princess and he is the prince? Come on! You need to wake up. You shouldnt be living in the visual world. Everything just seems so fake. Why don’t you find another guy and piss him off? ;) Like old times..
Heart: No. I will not do it anymore. You havnt learn your lesson last time? Just leave it. I dont want to fight.
Brain: Yeah. Just leave it but right now you couldnt even concentrate on your spm. Please. You said you’re going to make your parents proud of you and where is the determination to succeed right now?
Heart: I dont know. Everything seemed so fake to me right now. I dont know what I want. All i want is him. Him only but he acted like he doesnt even care and it hurts a lot. Does he really lose his feelings towards me?
Brain: I dont know what to say right now. No one can help you. Not even him. Listen to me girl, if he is yours he will be yours and if he is not yours.. he will never be yours…
Heart: I know but sometimes God let us choose too. I dont know what to do right now.. Brain.. you think… you have all the neurons inside the brain..
Brain: You’re such a stupid girl. Why you love him so much and he wouldnt even care. He wanted to focus on his studies and he likes other girls right now. He treated you cold and didn’t even care about your condition and situation and he is having fun… FUNNNN! Funnnnnnnnnnnnnn! Please peggy.. wake up…
Okay..Why am i talking to myself right now? :( God, please.. tell me what to do :( Im weak…Very weak. :’( Please God. Help me… :( :’( :(( Should I let go or hold on? :(